im still hoping for the best. mom, i love you. i promised i'll be the best i could be. mom, its hard to face it. mom, this is not what it supposed to be. mom, im falling apart. my heart shattered into pieces. dad, fight for this...... i love both of you and its impossible to fucking live without one of you. im independent enough but i am not ready for this. im hopeless. i'll do whatever it takes to bring the joys back in our life. i cant live like this. pretending everything is fine when we know it actually doesnt look like one. its like loosing one of my wing and if i loose it, how am i supposed to fly like how you guys taught me before? how am i supposed to get through the storms, the ups and downs when i loose one of my wing... mom, dad, dont you love me....? :'(