dont...

life can do terrible things. well, i dont want bad things to happen, well, happened again and again to be exact... we all know, we've tried our best to save this. to rebuild, to love everyone like we used to.. what happened now? what the fuck is happening to us now...? to wake up with that kind of thoughts, every single morning is not that easy. it never going to be that easy for me. its hurting me so much so so much and its damn hurtful. i dont want to keep on having these nightmares, i dont want to fall asleep while keep on hoping that all of these shits, going to end soon because i am honestly dont see that this, going to have a happy ending. tak penat ke act like this 24/7?! im a girl. well, you guys have taught me how to be independent as fuckk but hell no, im still a fucking girl whose need guardian, need shoulder to lean on, need someone to encourage me that i can be a better person. well guess what? i didnt get what i want.everyone wont get what they want, literally but ergh wtv its not that my wishes going to be granted pun.